Here goes

So I have been absent for some time, but not because my diet has been off, I actually have been doing fine with the weight loss...I am actually going to hit my goal that I wanted to reach by Christmas...HOWEVER, my life is currently in COMPLETE DISARRAY, I have recently made the biggest mistake of my entire life, a mistake that unfortunately has had major repercussions in my personal life.  I am beyond devastated, I have gone from seriously contemplating taking pills and never waking up to somewhat being able to take my day and getting through it...I prefer not to go into specifics on this blog, but I am not in a good place...I am rethinking my entire life up to this point, analyzing my behavior and trying to figure out who I am and exactly what I stand for...Because truthfully, I have no clue at this point...I really feel prayer and God will be the ONLY thing that will help at this point...Just wanted to check in and let you all know that I, thankfully, am still working out and eating right...I am still committed to this journey but I am facing the BIGGEST CHALLENGE of my life and I am going to need all your support at this point...