REVELATIONS!!!

I weighed myself this week and I LOST 2.5 pounds (1.13 kilograms)... I have lost a total of pounds 60.1 pounds (27.26 kilograms) in 30 weeks. I am very close to being a weight that I have not been in in over a decade....Oh and that is also the agreed upon weight range for FRANK TO GET OFF HIS ASS AND START RUNNING AGAIN!!! Geez, the boy really loves me as he completely let himself go for me..If you recall, my psychotic insecurities about being both slightly taller and SOOOO MUCH larger than him made me really uncomfortable..So this man, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE...my soul mate, said he could never make himself grow, but he can gain some weight to make me feel smaller! Is that love or what??? I have been soooo over that for some times now and he told me 2.5 years ago that he would stop sabotaging himself when I got to a certain weight and that weight is ALMOST HERE!!!!

I figured out what happened last week when I did not lose anything! First, I began my descent into PMS and ultimately Aunt Flo's HORRENDOUS VISIT and the light bulb went off...During the week of my cycle, I need to DRINK MORE WATER and not give in to my cravings..Sounds easy doesn't it?? I had had some sweets last week, specifically donuts, BUT I was counting calories and was shocked that the scale didn't move...I mean after all Jillian ALWAYS says calories in and calories out....So the day that I had the donut, that was a meal for me! Granted not the best choice, BUT being the week of my cycle, I did not lose! I went back into some of my blog history and realized that this has been the trend...Anyway that is what I discovered, so next month, I hope to be more prepared!

So I was talking to a friend of mine and she said she could not understand how in earlier blogs I was talking about how my insatiable desire for food was gone...LET ME BE CLEAR (IN THE TONE OF BARACK OBAMA!) I still LOVE FOOD but since the band puts pressure on the stomach it sends a full signal to my brain, I just don't think about it and I can go on with my day without CONSTANTLY being distracted by thoughts of food...The BIBLE says that it is our DESIRES that once conceived lead to SIN (JAMES 1:15)..Essentially that means prior to the band, my desire was food, and my thoughts were consumed with all things food related and those desires lead to the sins of idolatry and gluttony! Follow??? So since I lost a lot of weight so far, the band was naturally looser than back in March..and guess what happened?? My brain was not getting the full signals and I was eating more and I could feel this obsession for food starting to come back...I called my doctor, and that is why I got a fill and since I got it and it is tighter, I feel like the weeks following surgery...I can eat small portions and stay full for a 4 hours or so and that is where I find my success! So I am really really happy that I opted for the fill...He only put a little liquid in it as like I discussed in earlier blogs, I still want to be in control and have a wide variety of food options....

So my ankle is still feeling weird..a little better each day but I am still going to be focusing on weights this week and the pool, Aside from the lunges in the weight class, most of teh exercises are stationary, so I am going to try and go to three this week, I just cannot wait to go back to spin class...LOVE IT!!!...Oh and my dad saw me last night and said he has not seen me this thin in sooo long..he also said, that he can see mommy in me....That was sweet..."I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH MOM!!!!!" Anyway, Thanks for reading

Hmmmmmmmm

I weighed myself this week and I STAYED THE SAME!!!! I have lost a total of 57.6 pounds (26.13kilograms) in 29 weeks. It is interesting actually because I did have my fill and I have been eating soooooo much less. I actually feel the way I did when I first got the surgery. I am not afraid of overeating, and I am back to eating just half of everything, if that much. I have a few ideas as to why I stayed the same. Idea #1- I actually did LOSE weight but because I was eating MUCH MORE prior to the fill, the loss seems negligible (This is where I am leaning!) Idea #2- Perhaps there is gas associated with the fill just like when I first got the surgery. Idea #3- My body is adjusting to the my new smaller stomach. Regardless of which idea is the correct one, I KNOW NEXT WEEK WILL BE A BIG LOSS FOR ME! "How do you know that, Keli?" Well, I am glad you asked...I know this because it will be a full week of me eating on the new stomach and I tell you I feel just the way I did shortly after surgery, and I was doing GREAT a few months ago, Therefore it HAS TO WORK in time! That is how I KNOW! LOL

I tried to go to spin class last night, BIG MISTAKE! I had to leave 30 minutes into it because my ankle was really bothering me! I may need to start seeing a physical therapist to strengthen it or something because it has been 3 weeks already since the SPRAIN of 2010 and I am EAGER to get back into my exercise routine. I did try softer exercise, I went into the pool for Aqua Aerobics and seriously, it was like if I were TAKING A NAP! There really was no challenge comparing it to Spin, or Body Works classes...Anyway, I am going to be late for work...gotta go! Thanks for reading!

Bump in the Road!

I weighed myself this week and I gained a pound (.45 kg) I have lost a total of 57.6 pounds (26.13kilograms) in 28 weeks. I saw a commercial today from the American Arthritis Association which said: For every pound (.45 kg) that you lose, you take 4 pounds(1.81 kg)of pressure off of your knees. That means I have taken 230.4 pounds or 104.51 kg of pressure off of my knees! I have to be honest and say that I have been struggling for the past few weeks. I notice that I am getting hungrier sooner and when I am eating, I am eating more than normal. Now I am in NO WAY eating the quantities that I was prior to surgery, as that would be IMPOSSIBLE, but I am still eating more than I would like. So I spoke with my doctor and he explained that since I am almost down 60 pounds, the band is now not as tight around my stomach and he suggested that I get a fill. So I have an appointment for this Wednesday to have some saline placed into the band to make it tighter, which will make me less hungry. I am a little concerned as I have had no food issues or restrictions and I want to maintain that, but I am willing to risk it as I still have a lot more to lose and the way I am at this point, I feel will be very hard to get to without a fill! I went shopping this week and I bought a pair of jeans and a few pairs of dress pants, 3 SIZES SMALLER!!!! YEAH! Felt great, and I have to say, I look pretty good! So until next week, thanks for reading!

Just Keep Swimming

As I write this blog, I hear the phrase "Just Keep Swimming," in the voice of Dory from Finding Nemo! That is my goal, just keep going and before I know it, I will have a body that no longer is attached with shame and self hatred. I am very pleased with my progress thus far and I will just keep going. I have decided to go shopping this week as there are some nice sales going on....I need a few staple items that actually fit, so I can stop wearing my clown pants! LOL

I weighed myself this week and I stayed the same, I suppose I was prepared for this considering my HUGE loss last week and with a sprained foot, I could not get to the gym. I have lost a total of 58.6 pounds (26.59 kilograms) in 27 weeks. This week will be just as tough, my ankle is on the mend but I am in no way ready for spin or any other gym class that involves my feet. Not sure what next weeks weigh in will bring but I need to be super vigilant this week with my menu as I really want to reach that 60 pound mark! Anyway, thanks for reading!