REVELATIONS!!!

I weighed myself this week and I LOST 2.5 pounds (1.13 kilograms)... I have lost a total of pounds 60.1 pounds (27.26 kilograms) in 30 weeks. I am very close to being a weight that I have not been in in over a decade....Oh and that is also the agreed upon weight range for FRANK TO GET OFF HIS ASS AND START RUNNING AGAIN!!! Geez, the boy really loves me as he completely let himself go for me..If you recall, my psychotic insecurities about being both slightly taller and SOOOO MUCH larger than him made me really uncomfortable..So this man, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE...my soul mate, said he could never make himself grow, but he can gain some weight to make me feel smaller! Is that love or what??? I have been soooo over that for some times now and he told me 2.5 years ago that he would stop sabotaging himself when I got to a certain weight and that weight is ALMOST HERE!!!!

I figured out what happened last week when I did not lose anything! First, I began my descent into PMS and ultimately Aunt Flo's HORRENDOUS VISIT and the light bulb went off...During the week of my cycle, I need to DRINK MORE WATER and not give in to my cravings..Sounds easy doesn't it?? I had had some sweets last week, specifically donuts, BUT I was counting calories and was shocked that the scale didn't move...I mean after all Jillian ALWAYS says calories in and calories out....So the day that I had the donut, that was a meal for me! Granted not the best choice, BUT being the week of my cycle, I did not lose! I went back into some of my blog history and realized that this has been the trend...Anyway that is what I discovered, so next month, I hope to be more prepared!

So I was talking to a friend of mine and she said she could not understand how in earlier blogs I was talking about how my insatiable desire for food was gone...LET ME BE CLEAR (IN THE TONE OF BARACK OBAMA!) I still LOVE FOOD but since the band puts pressure on the stomach it sends a full signal to my brain, I just don't think about it and I can go on with my day without CONSTANTLY being distracted by thoughts of food...The BIBLE says that it is our DESIRES that once conceived lead to SIN (JAMES 1:15)..Essentially that means prior to the band, my desire was food, and my thoughts were consumed with all things food related and those desires lead to the sins of idolatry and gluttony! Follow??? So since I lost a lot of weight so far, the band was naturally looser than back in March..and guess what happened?? My brain was not getting the full signals and I was eating more and I could feel this obsession for food starting to come back...I called my doctor, and that is why I got a fill and since I got it and it is tighter, I feel like the weeks following surgery...I can eat small portions and stay full for a 4 hours or so and that is where I find my success! So I am really really happy that I opted for the fill...He only put a little liquid in it as like I discussed in earlier blogs, I still want to be in control and have a wide variety of food options....

So my ankle is still feeling weird..a little better each day but I am still going to be focusing on weights this week and the pool, Aside from the lunges in the weight class, most of teh exercises are stationary, so I am going to try and go to three this week, I just cannot wait to go back to spin class...LOVE IT!!!...Oh and my dad saw me last night and said he has not seen me this thin in sooo long..he also said, that he can see mommy in me....That was sweet..."I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH MOM!!!!!" Anyway, Thanks for reading