D-DAY

I weighed myself today and I GAINED A POUND (.45 kg) this week for a total loss of 87.2 pounds (39.55 KG) LOST in 70 weeks. I am somewhat PISSED as I worked out four times this week and my diet was good, filled with quality choices BUT AUNT FLOW was visiting so that could be a reason. Then again, the INTENSE HELL LIKE TEMPERATURE over the past week could also be the reason for some water retention or maybe it is my body evening out from the two previous weeks where I lost 10 pounds...Who knows, I don't and I have NO GUILT because I have been on program and this to shall pass and give rise to a brand new day.

So today is the BIG DAY, it is 3am and I am just about ready to leave for the airport to begin my trek to Venezuela! I am really excited about seeing my family but I have KNOTS in my stomach about this plane trip. I really just want to get into that seat and not have to use a seat belt extender. I plan on updating my Facebook page with the results but I do not want to blast "I FIT!" so in honor of Seinfeld, what else, I will post "Tippy Toe!" which will let you know that I fit into the seat and all is well...I will be blogging from Venezuela so I hope you continue to read and I plan on exercising and making good food choices while abroad, so I want to be one step further to my 100 pound mark up[on my return. Thanks for reading!

AMAZED!

I weighed myself today and I lost 5 LBS (2.27 kg) this week for a total loss of 88.2 pounds (40.01 KG) LOST in 69 weeks. I AM SUPER EXCITED! I went to spin class 2x this week and worked out on my own 2x as well. I also made healthy, PLANNED food choices ALL WEEK so I certainly got what I put in and it feels really great...

Getting this band was the BEST decision I have ever made and I only wish that I would have kept on top of my band fills so that I would not have had sooooo many bumps in the road. I think I was trying to do this sort of "on my own" by not following the doctor's recommendations of when I should get my fills. I do not think I will be doing that any more especially after seeing the results that I have had the last two weeks!

Well my trip to Venezuela is next week and I would appreciate ALL of you to PRAY for two things: traveling mercies & that I FIT INTO THAT PATHETICALLY SMALL THING THEY DARE CALL A SEAT!!!! I do not want to use a seat belt extender, something that I have had to use in the past. I hate asking for it b/c the look on the flight attendants face makes me feel like a worthless piece of crap. Also I do not want to be "overflowing" into the seat next to me. When I fly with someone I know, it makes that easier as my husband or other friends would have a little grace on me. Lastly, I would LOVE for the arm rest to be able to be down all while not crushing my legs giving me HUGE black & blues by the time the flight was over. I am hoping and praying that this goes off without a hitch, so I would truly appreciate your prayers.

I am 12 pounds away from the 100 lb mark and I WANT IT SOOOOOOOO BADLY. I want to return to school and have EVERYONE do a double take! That would be just awesome! Anyway, thanks for reading, until next time...Oh and I ABSOLUTELY plan on weighing myself and blogging from Venezuela to help keep me on track while away...

Confessions...

I got my fill this week, eating much less, I am trying to figure out if the tightness of teh band is appropriate for me at this point, since I have gotten sooooo far away from how I was in the beginning, I have to retrian myself to eat this small again..It's always a retraining process, ALWAYS...

I weighed myself today and I lost 5.2 LBS (2.36 kg) this week for a total loss of 83.2 pounds (37.83 KG) LOST in 68 weeks. In case you are wonderng why the total weight loss hasn't moved much, it is very simple, I LIED LAST WEEK! I was morified that instead of actually gaining 3 pounds last week, I actually gained 9! I do not know what exactly is wrong with with me that when I have such a huge pitfall I cannot be honest. I really have an issue. So I have decided to fix that and here is how I have proposed to do so. I am finally going to reveal it, I am going to face my weight. I always said I would NEVER reveal how much I weighed, but I am prepared to do it now. When I started last year, the morning of my weigh in I was 376.6 pounds (170.82 KG)...My weight this morning was 293.4 (133.08 kg) The reason I think revealing this "magic number" is that I have been HIDING my entire life and it is time to stop hiding... Now that I have my fill, I feel like I am in a good place and I plan on returning to the gym as soon as I get my clearance which is actually happening today!

Now for some POSITIVES, I went to the movies and I was able to sit in the middle of the row with no issues. I am wearing a size 18/20 which I have not worn since freshamn year of high school. I also met a friend that I have not seen in over a year and she said I looked spectacular. I am looking forward to the next few weeks as my eating is certainly at the place it was immediately following surgery. I think what happened was that I let too much time pass between fills...I am not going to let this happen again and I hope that by making this big reveal, it will somehow take the shame away...Looking forward to your comments, either on here or through text etc.

Tomorrow is IT!!!

I weighed myself today and I Gained 3 LBS (1.36 kg) this week for a total loss of 83.4 pounds (37.83 KG) LOST in 67 weeks. This gain is due to MANY reasons. I am retaining water from my period, yes, BUT I am in desperate need of a fill and have been eating more than normal. In addition, with the holiday, I Have gone to 4 barbeque's in the last 5 days! So that in itself, I mean it all makes sense. I am not super bummed as I could tell this was happening and I am CONFIDENT that it will come off rather quickly as tomorrow I am GETTING MY FILL. This fill was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo overdue. I should not have waited this long because before you know it, you are eating more and more each day. Now I know I am not supposed to rely on the band 100% HOWEVER, i would not have NEEDED this surgery if i did not have FOOD ISSUES my ENTIRE LIFE! Well regardless of this weeks'; hiccup, I have TONS to be grateful for, I am wearing the smallest size pants I HAVE EVER WORN, I have lost almost 3 FEET of excess inches and I will say it, I LOOK GOOD! So tomorrow I get the fill and back on the yellow brick road I go! A friend just posted a picture of the world famous Cyclone roller coaster on her Facebook page...I wonder how much weight I need to lose before I can attempt top go on it, I Have ALWAYS wanted to ride it! Soon and VERY SOON, thanks for reading!