CANNOT CATCH A BREAK!!!

So I went to Colorado and being on vacation I did not really watch what I was eating and I did not exercise the way i normally do.  Therefore it was no surprise to me that LAST WEEK, I had a gain.  However, this week, I was back on track...Back to my running regimen and going to spin and lifting weights.  So what happens? I get my period! BUT I was CERTAIN, that even with my period, due to the fact that I was back on point, I would still have a loss...BOY WAS I WRONG!!! I GAINED AGAIN! I cant even express in words how I am feeling at this moment.  I went to the gynbecologist this week and she said she will give me the go ahead for pregnancy in 50 pounds. SO this BUMO in the journey is really PISSING ME OFF!!!

This week, I am writing down EVERYTHING that meets my lips and I will continue with my running regimen and usuaul workout routine, so I am HOPING that next week will be bbetter...thats all I have for now...Thanks for reading!

Beyond SPEECHLESS!

So this week was my wedding anniversary and Frank took me to dinner...I enjoyed the evening, not just because I was with my love but the food was amazing! I had a modest Italian meal, which I really did not finish and a had a piece of cake...a single piece of cake...I was nervous about stepping on the scale today because of the infamous cake but I kept saying to myself "it's just a piece of cake!" Well BOY WAS I WRONG!!! It was NOT just a piece of cake, it was my DEMISE, my COMPLETE DESTRUCTION!!! I weighed myself this week and I GAINED 4 pounds!!!! That's right 4 pounds!!! That means that I, a band patient, who can barely eat a complete meal ate in excess of 14,000 calories this week!!! Are you as surprised as I am? I have absolutely nothing to say, I am beyond devastated, this is a set back I was not expecting and am not prepared for....It just makes no sense to e...I worked out 6 days last week, I am running, spinning, doing weights, using the row machine...I mean really? I have nothing to say...I am beyond committed to this journey and even though I think it is completely IMPOSSIBLE for me to have eaten in excess of 14,000 calories, I do know that I have not been journaling my food...so with that, I started journaling today and hopefully, next week I see a positive, lower number on that dreaded scale! Thanks for reading!

This is really tough to take...

I weighed myself today and unfortunately I STAYED THE SAME...not an ounce lost...I did have my period this week but I worked out LIKE CRAZY, ran twice did 3 spin classes and weight trained twice!!!! So this is what just INFURIATES me, this last leg is just soooooooooooooo hard, BUT I REFUSE TO QUIT...No matter how much as I am typing this I am dying for a warm walnut brownie smothered in ice cream, hot fudge, whipped cream and topped with two Kit Kat's coming off the top! LOL Can you tell I like my sweets? LOL

What is really strange is that I could not stop looking at myself in the mirror this week, I was totally doing double and triple takes and I was EXPECTING a loss this week, I really was...SO I am really bummed but I have no choice but to pick myself up and KEEP GOING, moving towards my goal because all of my hard work HAS TO PAY OFF eventually, IT HAS too! The body is sooo strange, like you can have a great loss on a week that you hardly did anything and vice versa...the human body is definitely an enigma...anyway, thanks for reading...

Another one bites the dust...

I weighed myself today and THANKFULLY, I lost another pound (.45 Kg).  What is interesting is that when I stepped on the scale, my initial reaction was DAMN IT, you know that feeling when you know that you did what you needed to do, and you are just praying to JESUS,  LORD make it a good week and then you do NOT see the 2 or 3 pound loss rather you see the 1 pound loss! Well I will take it, because it is going down, and I had my surgery this week and really have not worked out like I usually do, probably because I couldn't see, was advised not to get water/sweat into my eyes until the lens is taken out..therefore, I worked out last Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday and that was it...so in light of that, I will take the pound....I am on my way and I don't care how long it takes but I WILL GET THERE!!!

I am going to Orlando this December and will see some of my Venezuelan family that I have not seen since summer of 2011...I want to be at 200 lbs or under!!! This is a doable goal and that is what I want...I was talking to a friend via text about how I am off all summer and I really should be in the gym 6 hours a day and I was like I have NO MOTIVATION for that task! So she said, why not work out twice per day, morning and night and even that seems nuts to me, but perhaps that is what needs to be done, I'm not sure,....but I will definitely keep you all posted on what I decide! Thanks for reading!