ELATED....BUT...

I weighed myself this week and i LOST 4.2 pounds (1.91 KG)...I really am super stoked but I had a few revelations this week that I wanted to share...Frank has been talking to me about my over all negativity..This is something that I have always known was an issue forme, but I used to joke it off as part of my jewish heriatge, you know becuase the Jews are known for complaining and whining...Well I think that was my cop out excuse...I wish I knew why I lean to the negative..I hate that I do..I have tons to be thankful for and I can see that it is taxing on people...It is no secret that people are drawn to those who are positive and uplifting...so maybe that is why I have always struggled with making and keeping friends? Who knows, all I know is that I have tons to be thankful for in my life and I need to start being positive..Now being that I am a Christian, it is more than just "being positive" because the Lord is in my life, I should be expressing happiness and joy all the time, so the issue is my heart...I think I have been sooo deeply wounded from a young age that I am stuck in this muck..but Frank constantly reminds me that I dont have to be...Frank says to just let my healing begin, be vulnerable to God and to others...See myself as he and God see me, and express my gratitude...so this is where I am at, lots of thinking this week...I titled my blog "elated, but," becuase I am out of the gym for a few days becuase of a sinus infection and I took off of work today and have been feeling really terrible...not sure when I can resume my normal work out routine...SO as you can see the "but" came from my negative thoughts about having an awesome week this week, but it will all go to hell this week becuase I cant exercise! DO you all see my problem? its a vicious cycle really!..LORD HELP ME!