Red Menace

Well I stepped on the scale today and was NOT SURPRISED to see yet another gain!! I have my period and I ALWAYS gain the week of my period.  I am pretty confident that this is not a true gain because I did not have a bad cheating week.  I actually had some positives this week that I would like to share.  I was able to go to Great Adventure and fit comfortably into the roller coaster that I was kicked off of 10 years ago for being to fat to ride! That was an amazing accomplishment! I also went school shopping and was able to do 90% of my purchases in NON PLUS SIZE STORES!!! I am feeling good and remain  committed to reach my goal, thanks for reading!

UP, DOWN, UP, DOWN!!!

I weighed myself today and I GAINED 2.2 pounds (1Kg)...My only explanation for this is that my body is trying to even itself out from last weeks 8lb (3.67 Kg) loss...I really had no issues this week related to food choices and I worked out 5 days this week, including going Kayaking for the day.  I was super excited to go Kayaking because I would NEVER had been able to fit into the kayak 2 years ago...Today I am on my way to Great Adventure for the first time in 10 years...10 years ago, I was kicked off one of the roller coasters because I was too big to ride and they could not get the harness to lock...So I am quite nervous, even though I have lost half of my body weight, I would be DEVASTATED if I still did not fit...Please send me your prayers and positive thoughts today...Until next time, thanks for reading...

HALLELUJAH!!!

SO I weighed myself today and I LOST, are you ready for it?? I LOST 8 POUNDS (3.67 Kg)!!!!!! SO I lost ALL of the weight I gained in recent horrible weeks PLUS a smidge more!!! Excuse me while I do the HAPPY Dance around my living room!!!!

OK, I'm back! SO how did I do this you ask? Well I actually did the same workouts, running, spin, and weight training but my eating radically changed. I did not eat out all week, except for like Subway and salad works... I started to incorporate the muscle milk again into my diet. m If you recall early on, the doctors had said it is ALL about protein.  Well I Incorporated 2 muscle milk light daily snacks for an additional 40 grams of daily protein.  In addition, I JOURNALED!!! Oh and all week I "reflected" and it is really funny how when you reflect after a gain, you suddenly remember all teh shit that you ate that you "forgot" to right down! One of my loyal blog readers said that she thought it was crazy that for the rest of my life, I would have to right down everything I eat..Well, I m thinking that every diet in America that requires journaling cant be wrong...because LOOK at these results!!!! I want to be DRASTICALLY smaller by December!! I'M ON MY WAY!!! Thanks for reading! I have not been hearing from some of you, I think you ALL should post a comment...dont you? LOL

Enlightenement!

I was SHOCKED beyond SHOCKED to get on the scale this morning and NOT SEE a loss! I really do not understand what the hell is going on with my body and then I had a MAJOR realization that hit me like a Mack Truck! That inner voice in my head reminded me that i Have not journaled in 3 weeks and guess what people? I have gained the last 3 weeks! The voice also told me that I have not really been focused on "good food" I have been eating, at times, shitty choices like boneless buffalo wings! Now I realize that an occasional "cheat" is good and helps with the cravings, but I really have not focused on my lean protein and fruits and vegetables since my vacation but I can assure you that this ENDS TODAY!!! I am BEYOND DONE with seeing this shit on the scale! i AM RECOMMITTED NOW, THIS STARTS AGAIN NOW!!! Thanks for reading and I am NOT A FAILURE!! (That declaration was for me!)

CANNOT CATCH A BREAK!!!

So I went to Colorado and being on vacation I did not really watch what I was eating and I did not exercise the way i normally do.  Therefore it was no surprise to me that LAST WEEK, I had a gain.  However, this week, I was back on track...Back to my running regimen and going to spin and lifting weights.  So what happens? I get my period! BUT I was CERTAIN, that even with my period, due to the fact that I was back on point, I would still have a loss...BOY WAS I WRONG!!! I GAINED AGAIN! I cant even express in words how I am feeling at this moment.  I went to the gynbecologist this week and she said she will give me the go ahead for pregnancy in 50 pounds. SO this BUMO in the journey is really PISSING ME OFF!!!

This week, I am writing down EVERYTHING that meets my lips and I will continue with my running regimen and usuaul workout routine, so I am HOPING that next week will be bbetter...thats all I have for now...Thanks for reading!

Beyond SPEECHLESS!

So this week was my wedding anniversary and Frank took me to dinner...I enjoyed the evening, not just because I was with my love but the food was amazing! I had a modest Italian meal, which I really did not finish and a had a piece of cake...a single piece of cake...I was nervous about stepping on the scale today because of the infamous cake but I kept saying to myself "it's just a piece of cake!" Well BOY WAS I WRONG!!! It was NOT just a piece of cake, it was my DEMISE, my COMPLETE DESTRUCTION!!! I weighed myself this week and I GAINED 4 pounds!!!! That's right 4 pounds!!! That means that I, a band patient, who can barely eat a complete meal ate in excess of 14,000 calories this week!!! Are you as surprised as I am? I have absolutely nothing to say, I am beyond devastated, this is a set back I was not expecting and am not prepared for....It just makes no sense to e...I worked out 6 days last week, I am running, spinning, doing weights, using the row machine...I mean really? I have nothing to say...I am beyond committed to this journey and even though I think it is completely IMPOSSIBLE for me to have eaten in excess of 14,000 calories, I do know that I have not been journaling my food...so with that, I started journaling today and hopefully, next week I see a positive, lower number on that dreaded scale! Thanks for reading!

This is really tough to take...

I weighed myself today and unfortunately I STAYED THE SAME...not an ounce lost...I did have my period this week but I worked out LIKE CRAZY, ran twice did 3 spin classes and weight trained twice!!!! So this is what just INFURIATES me, this last leg is just soooooooooooooo hard, BUT I REFUSE TO QUIT...No matter how much as I am typing this I am dying for a warm walnut brownie smothered in ice cream, hot fudge, whipped cream and topped with two Kit Kat's coming off the top! LOL Can you tell I like my sweets? LOL

What is really strange is that I could not stop looking at myself in the mirror this week, I was totally doing double and triple takes and I was EXPECTING a loss this week, I really was...SO I am really bummed but I have no choice but to pick myself up and KEEP GOING, moving towards my goal because all of my hard work HAS TO PAY OFF eventually, IT HAS too! The body is sooo strange, like you can have a great loss on a week that you hardly did anything and vice versa...the human body is definitely an enigma...anyway, thanks for reading...