Night before...

I weighed myself this week and I STAYED THE SAME. I have lost a total of 71.2 pounds (32.3 kilograms) in 48 weeks. On one hand it is good that OI did not gain, considering how I am struggling but I am pissed nonetheless. I have 4 more weeks until the one year anniversary of my surgery and I wanted to be further along than I am....

On a good note, I did my measurements this week and I have lost a total of 39.75 inches off of my body since my surgery...That is over 3 ft, or a small child! LOL, Since my last measurements were taken 3 months ago, I have lost 6.25 inches...So if I am trying to look on thr bright side, I do have that...I also have perserverence, becuase I will get there, and I cannot wait!


I am writing this blog entry on Monday, contemplating as to what my morning weigh in will be like. You see, it is no secret that I am struggling. I need a fill and I cannot get one until April 20th at 8am...The reason for this is that my insurance changed and I was able to get my insurance company to pay my doctor his fees BUT they will only cover services in the hospital...So I cannot go to his office for a fill...He only goes to hospitals on Wednesday mornings and since I am not tenured and I recently took off two emergency days from work, I am basically screwed until my next Wednesday off which is not until spring break!!! I was sooooooooooooooooooooo depressed this past week that I actually DID not eat Anything for 2 days, and we all know that is not good, if I could explain my actions, I would, but I cannot. When I finally got out of my funk, I ate well, but not crazy...I am being soooo much more conscientious about my food choices and trying to cut my portions down even more..However, when the band is filled to that "sweet spot," I can eat a reasonable meal and not be hungry for 4-5 hours, now I am hungry in 2.5! This presents a variety of issues for me, as I find myself thinking and fantasizing about food much more than I should...In addition, when I worked out this week, my foot started hurting again so I had to take a few days off from intense working out. So even though I am going for walks and lifting weights, I am not spinning or doing intense fat burning cardio until I can manage the foot pain..So you see I have no idea what tomorrow will bring...