I weighed myself today and I LOST 4.8 LBS (2.18 kg) this week for a total of 77.2 pounds(35.02 kilograms) LOST in 57 weeks. So this is the lightest I have been in at least 12 years...
My cousin Ricardo and his wife Esther came to visit from Venezuela this week and it was soooooo much fun. I spent the majority of each day with them and it was just a great week, way too short but a great week. We went to see Jersey Boys and I must say, those seats were still a tight squeeze! I told my cousin had I not lost 70+ pounds prior to that, it would have NEVER been possible....So I need to look on the bright side, although this may be harder than it sounds. Ricardo noticed the following: he said I beat myself up a lot...I know that I do and I know that I am CONSTANTLY criticizing everything about me..to the point that I make myself sick...I don't get it, I mean childhood stuff aside, I am 32 years old and I am sick of this having a hold on me. We were taking pictures and I really thought I would have looked better and I had each picture retaken sooooooooooooooooooooo many times! And even on the ones I posted, all I could see were my flaws, but I posted them anyway.
It was definitely an emotional time for me on sooo many levels. They were great, the bond that we share is very strong. I saw my mom a few times this week, in some of the words that Ricardo had said...sounded just like how my mom would say them. That part was hard but sweet at the same time...
My legs are KILLING ME! I mean I have been running with the trainer and I LOVE The feeling, but seriously my knees, shins, ankles are KILLING...to the point that I need 4days of recovery time, which is just not cool...My cousin's wife said I need to just walk fast for a minimum of 30 minutes each day and build up from there...I know that walking is a great exercise, BUT, how do I walk fast enough to make it work for me? That is the question of the hour. So aside from walking around Manhattan, I did not do any other exercising this week. I told myself today that I was going to go to spin, but I didn't than I said I would go for a walk, but I didn't...Hey this blog is about honesty, and I am being honest..Did I mention that last Thursday I was rushing to get into the city to meet them and I ate breakfast toooooo fast and I had to pull over on the side of the NJ Turnpike and I vomited! I have NEVER vomited since getting the band and I was shocked as to how this could be happening. I saw my doctor on Friday and he said that I just need to refocus and remember to eat slow, use a fork and knife and put it down in between bites...I think i got off that pace before the fill because I didn't have to, but now post fill, I need to get back to that strategy, daily. Also the doctor did say that I am reaching every milestone and he is happy with my progress. I have to remember that I did get the band, the less invasive of the bariatric surgeries. Had I had the bypass, I would have reached my goal by now BUT I am happier know that my internal organs are in tact and I am doing well...I just need to be positive, know that I am loved and wanted by many people and really not just say it but BELIEVE it...
Monday, April 25, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
MUCH BETTER!
I weighed myself today and I LOST 1.8 LBS (.82 kg)this week for a total of 72.4 pounds(32.84 kilograms) LOST in 56 weeks. I feel much better as I refocused myself this week, concentrated on my protein, water and exercising!
I have very little to say except that I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited becuase my cousin from venezuela and his wife are here! I have not seen him in 10 years and it is just FANTASTIC to be able to give him a hug for real as opposed to on a computer screen via SKYPE! We are going to a broadway sho tonight, taking them to see Jersey Boys. I have heard great things about that show. We will hang aroung manhattan and just enjy the quality time together.
My trainer is out of town this week, but I have been running on my own in his absence. I ran on teh treadmill yesterday, and I think I prefer running outside better but I got the session in, so I am proud of myself! Anyway, thansk for reading!
I have very little to say except that I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited becuase my cousin from venezuela and his wife are here! I have not seen him in 10 years and it is just FANTASTIC to be able to give him a hug for real as opposed to on a computer screen via SKYPE! We are going to a broadway sho tonight, taking them to see Jersey Boys. I have heard great things about that show. We will hang aroung manhattan and just enjy the quality time together.
My trainer is out of town this week, but I have been running on my own in his absence. I ran on teh treadmill yesterday, and I think I prefer running outside better but I got the session in, so I am proud of myself! Anyway, thansk for reading!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
WAY OFF!
I weighed myself today and I gained 2.8 LBS (1.27 kg)this week for a total of 70.6 pounds(32.02 kilograms) LOST in 55 weeks.
Well, as tears are rolling down my cheeks, I am trying to understand this sudden change of events. I am meticulously going over this week in my head...What went wrong? The only day that I knew I "cheated" was Friday night but I cheated on Daniel Fast approved foods, nuts, fruit, hummus! COME ON! My period was over by Thursday, so that is not it....Frank did take me out to dinner but that cant be it either...I am thinking that I just was not focused this week...Did not journal, did not focus on my protein and water...That must be it, when I get distracted, this shit happens....On a better note, I worked out 4 times this week..I had a training session, indoors becuase of teh rain, I ran with Frank, did a spin class, weight workout...I mean as far as working out was concerned, thsi was a great week! Anyway, I have nothing else to say except that today is the start of a new week, a week that will allow me to redeem myself...I am now 6 pounds away from the THINNEST weight I have been in 14 years...I would have much rather been 1-2 pounds away from that goal but I made my bed and I am sleeping in it....Onward and upward...Thanks for reading....
Well, as tears are rolling down my cheeks, I am trying to understand this sudden change of events. I am meticulously going over this week in my head...What went wrong? The only day that I knew I "cheated" was Friday night but I cheated on Daniel Fast approved foods, nuts, fruit, hummus! COME ON! My period was over by Thursday, so that is not it....Frank did take me out to dinner but that cant be it either...I am thinking that I just was not focused this week...Did not journal, did not focus on my protein and water...That must be it, when I get distracted, this shit happens....On a better note, I worked out 4 times this week..I had a training session, indoors becuase of teh rain, I ran with Frank, did a spin class, weight workout...I mean as far as working out was concerned, thsi was a great week! Anyway, I have nothing else to say except that today is the start of a new week, a week that will allow me to redeem myself...I am now 6 pounds away from the THINNEST weight I have been in 14 years...I would have much rather been 1-2 pounds away from that goal but I made my bed and I am sleeping in it....Onward and upward...Thanks for reading....
Monday, April 4, 2011
AUNT FLOW..YOU WHORE! LOL
I weighed myself today and I LOST 1.2 LBS (.54 kg)this week for a total of 73.4 pounds (33.29 kilograms) in 54 weeks.
As per the title of this weeks entry, one can tell that it is that time of the month again...a time EVERY woman dreads, unless you are having some sort of a pregnancy scare and you rejoice when she arrives! I have been really grumpy and moody of course...Luckily, I did get some quality workouts in this week..I would like to give a shout out to my trainer who pushes me soooooo hard and I seriosuly am cursing him for the whole hour but I am improving and become more agile and just the idea of being able to run for longer distances each week makes me borderline gitty!! Did I mention that he is from England and he often suggests that I have a banana after we are done but with his English Accent it sounds like "Buh-NAH-NA!" I did my fastest sprint this week..when we made it back to the apartment, even Frank commented on how much quicker it was this week! His workout was soooo hard this week that after it was over, I layed down flat on my face and stayed there for about 30 minutes until I had the strength to get up!
I am crazy busy at work, but I am still LOVING IT! Looking forward to a long career at this school...God Willing! The Daniel Fast is going well..I am over the initial SHOCK of not watching my show for hours a day...My eating is coming along nicely, since the fill. I am a little peaved that I onlylost 1.2 pounds this week, but I am sooooo bloated from Aunt Flow, it was expected as she always throws a curve ball at me everytime she comes for a visit! I am just in a word "trucking!" Every ounce lost puts me that much closer to my Biggest Loser moment and the most KICK ASS SKINNY PARTY this side of the Mason Dixon! LOL Anyway, that is all for now...thanks for reading!
As per the title of this weeks entry, one can tell that it is that time of the month again...a time EVERY woman dreads, unless you are having some sort of a pregnancy scare and you rejoice when she arrives! I have been really grumpy and moody of course...Luckily, I did get some quality workouts in this week..I would like to give a shout out to my trainer who pushes me soooooo hard and I seriosuly am cursing him for the whole hour but I am improving and become more agile and just the idea of being able to run for longer distances each week makes me borderline gitty!! Did I mention that he is from England and he often suggests that I have a banana after we are done but with his English Accent it sounds like "Buh-NAH-NA!" I did my fastest sprint this week..when we made it back to the apartment, even Frank commented on how much quicker it was this week! His workout was soooo hard this week that after it was over, I layed down flat on my face and stayed there for about 30 minutes until I had the strength to get up!
I am crazy busy at work, but I am still LOVING IT! Looking forward to a long career at this school...God Willing! The Daniel Fast is going well..I am over the initial SHOCK of not watching my show for hours a day...My eating is coming along nicely, since the fill. I am a little peaved that I onlylost 1.2 pounds this week, but I am sooooo bloated from Aunt Flow, it was expected as she always throws a curve ball at me everytime she comes for a visit! I am just in a word "trucking!" Every ounce lost puts me that much closer to my Biggest Loser moment and the most KICK ASS SKINNY PARTY this side of the Mason Dixon! LOL Anyway, that is all for now...thanks for reading!
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