I think I have hit my wall!

So let's start off by being HONEST. Since December 1, 2011 I have been completely FOOLING myself. I have not been journaling and focusing on protein, I have been GIVING in to EVERY FOOD CRAVING that comes up. I have NOT been disciplined and although I have been trying to "MAKE IT UP" with extra workouts, this NEVER works, Today included! When I stepped on the scale this morning and so yet another gain, I began to cry and I told myself, it ends today. The free pass that i though I had earned for all my hard work, HAS EXPIRED! I am DONE, DONE WITH THE EXCUSES, DONE WITH trying to work the "game." So I had a 1.8 gain this week and although HORRIFIC, I needed it. I needed it to WAKE MY FUCKING ASS UP!!!! MESSAGE RECEIVED folks: I cannot deviate from the "weight loss prescription" that I KNOW WORKS! The holidays are over and I am SICK TO MY STOMACH of getting on the scale and before I look down, saying a prayer that its not awful, because I know that what I did for the week did not contribute to a true loss! Well it finally happened the little "detour" I took since December 1 is OVER...THIS IS MY GUARANTEE to ALL of you, MESSAGE RECEIVED! Here's to a new day and the determination to rach the new me, thanks for reading and sending me nice, encouraging comments!