I weighed myself today and GAINED 1.4 LBS (.64 kg) this week for a total loss of pounds( 35.11 kilograms) LOST in 60 weeks.
I worked out 6 days this week. I wanted to try something and see what the outcome on the scale would be. Although it is hard to say since I got a surprise gift, 10 days early, yep my period AGAIN! Sooo weird, going to the doctor to make sure it is not related to that cyst that I have on my ovary.
I really do not know what to say. I did not stray from the plan and I committed really hard to my work outs this week, I was anticipating breaking the 80 pound (36.29 kg) this week. I really have NOTHING to say except that I am PISSED!
If you have not heard, I was offered my contract for next year. SO EXCITING! I am so grateful to God for honoring me in this way. I worked really hard and I am just thrilled to be at the school that I am at with a boss that I respect and who is an overall NICE person!
Anyway, I really have NOTHING to say at this point except that I am beyond disappointed and just sooooooo angry, I need to stop typing before I throw my laptop across the living room! Thanks for reading, hopefully, next week, I will have better news!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Sweet!
I weighed myself today and LOST 1.4 LBS (.64 kg) this week for a total of 78.8 pounds(35.74 kilograms) LOST in 59 weeks.
I can TASTE 80 pounds, and I am not giving up! My goal is 100 lbs (45.36 kg) by Venezuela. I bought my ticket this weekend. Praying that I continue to lose and I can fly somewhat comfortable. I just do not want to spill over into the seat next to me. If I can do that, I will be really HAPPY! I will be going from July 26-August 16, 2011. I am really excited and the only thing that would make it better is if Frank could go with me, but his job is just too demanding. Thankfully, he understands why I need and want to go and he is supportive.
So this week, my friend helped me clean out my closet. I am really grateful as I needed her to say "LET IT GO!" and help me purge my closet. There were 7 trash bags thrown away of clothes that were just too big. That's always a nice feeling!
I worked out with the trainer this weekend. I told him about my injuries and how my legs were just THROBBING from running so he curtailed the workout and he still KICKED MY ASS! He is really good though, wish I had the cash to get him here more than once per week.
In the process of cleaning out the closet, I found tons of work clothes, with tags still on them in various sizes. I am now wearing a size that I have not worn since High School! People at work are starting to notice now, which is always awesome.
This week was Mother's Day and it was single-handedly, THE HARDEST DAY that I have had since my beloved mommy was taken from us. I felt such an emptiness and it was really painful. Seeing all the mom's with their flowers and all dressed up at church was truly an agonizing experience. Thankfully, the Lord comforts...
So this week, I want to add another workout to my regimen. Hopefully, an extra day will allow me to have a higher loss next week. We shall see, thanks for reading!
I can TASTE 80 pounds, and I am not giving up! My goal is 100 lbs (45.36 kg) by Venezuela. I bought my ticket this weekend. Praying that I continue to lose and I can fly somewhat comfortable. I just do not want to spill over into the seat next to me. If I can do that, I will be really HAPPY! I will be going from July 26-August 16, 2011. I am really excited and the only thing that would make it better is if Frank could go with me, but his job is just too demanding. Thankfully, he understands why I need and want to go and he is supportive.
So this week, my friend helped me clean out my closet. I am really grateful as I needed her to say "LET IT GO!" and help me purge my closet. There were 7 trash bags thrown away of clothes that were just too big. That's always a nice feeling!
I worked out with the trainer this weekend. I told him about my injuries and how my legs were just THROBBING from running so he curtailed the workout and he still KICKED MY ASS! He is really good though, wish I had the cash to get him here more than once per week.
In the process of cleaning out the closet, I found tons of work clothes, with tags still on them in various sizes. I am now wearing a size that I have not worn since High School! People at work are starting to notice now, which is always awesome.
This week was Mother's Day and it was single-handedly, THE HARDEST DAY that I have had since my beloved mommy was taken from us. I felt such an emptiness and it was really painful. Seeing all the mom's with their flowers and all dressed up at church was truly an agonizing experience. Thankfully, the Lord comforts...
So this week, I want to add another workout to my regimen. Hopefully, an extra day will allow me to have a higher loss next week. We shall see, thanks for reading!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Annoying!
I weighed myself today and only LOST .2 LBS (.09 kg) this week for a total of 77.4 pounds(35.11 kilograms) LOST in 58 weeks. PATHETIC!!! I cannot figure this out, I did not cheat at all and I am really pissed this morning. I did have an awesome loss last week, perhaps, my body is balancing out...no idea...sooooo annoyed! I need t0 lose 22.6 pounds more by my trip! This is soooooo hard, even with the band, losing weight is a constant challenge. Daily, I have to make the right choices on my diet, exercise etc...Just once I would like not to have my this pressure on myself, no such luck I guess...
This week was pretty uneventful, EXCEPT for the time I spent shopping for the DREADED BATHING SUIT! The good news is that I am SEVERAL SIZES smaller, HOWEVER, I may be the object of some local whale harpooners! I would rather do ANYTHING than have to look at my body in a 3-D mirror, I mean really, it is the most OBJECTIONABLE NIGHTMARE known to the female species! Someday, maybe I won't mind so much, although I do not know many women who enjoy bathing suit shopping...
It has been one week since my cousins have gone home, and I really miss them..It is the strangest thing, because I saw them once when I was 4, Once ten years ago and then last week..yet the bond that I have with all of them is very strong. For those of you who have read this blog and have known me for years, you will know how I always hoped and prayed for a big and here is the key GENUINE extended family. I am so grateful for technology, like Skype and Facebook, which allows us to stay in touch and I am really excited about my trip.
Speaking of my trip, truthfully, I AM FREAKED over flying and TRIPLE FREAKED at having to fit in those seats! My plan is to continue doing what I am doing and hopefully I will be 100 lbs (45 KG) lighter!
I returned to teh gym tonight, went to spin class, feeling great! I have been walking and I will be talking to my trainer about incorporating speed walking in our weekly workout sessions. Anyway, thanks for reading!
This week was pretty uneventful, EXCEPT for the time I spent shopping for the DREADED BATHING SUIT! The good news is that I am SEVERAL SIZES smaller, HOWEVER, I may be the object of some local whale harpooners! I would rather do ANYTHING than have to look at my body in a 3-D mirror, I mean really, it is the most OBJECTIONABLE NIGHTMARE known to the female species! Someday, maybe I won't mind so much, although I do not know many women who enjoy bathing suit shopping...
It has been one week since my cousins have gone home, and I really miss them..It is the strangest thing, because I saw them once when I was 4, Once ten years ago and then last week..yet the bond that I have with all of them is very strong. For those of you who have read this blog and have known me for years, you will know how I always hoped and prayed for a big and here is the key GENUINE extended family. I am so grateful for technology, like Skype and Facebook, which allows us to stay in touch and I am really excited about my trip.
Speaking of my trip, truthfully, I AM FREAKED over flying and TRIPLE FREAKED at having to fit in those seats! My plan is to continue doing what I am doing and hopefully I will be 100 lbs (45 KG) lighter!
I returned to teh gym tonight, went to spin class, feeling great! I have been walking and I will be talking to my trainer about incorporating speed walking in our weekly workout sessions. Anyway, thanks for reading!
Monday, April 25, 2011
What a week!
I weighed myself today and I LOST 4.8 LBS (2.18 kg) this week for a total of 77.2 pounds(35.02 kilograms) LOST in 57 weeks. So this is the lightest I have been in at least 12 years...
My cousin Ricardo and his wife Esther came to visit from Venezuela this week and it was soooooo much fun. I spent the majority of each day with them and it was just a great week, way too short but a great week. We went to see Jersey Boys and I must say, those seats were still a tight squeeze! I told my cousin had I not lost 70+ pounds prior to that, it would have NEVER been possible....So I need to look on the bright side, although this may be harder than it sounds. Ricardo noticed the following: he said I beat myself up a lot...I know that I do and I know that I am CONSTANTLY criticizing everything about me..to the point that I make myself sick...I don't get it, I mean childhood stuff aside, I am 32 years old and I am sick of this having a hold on me. We were taking pictures and I really thought I would have looked better and I had each picture retaken sooooooooooooooooooooo many times! And even on the ones I posted, all I could see were my flaws, but I posted them anyway.
It was definitely an emotional time for me on sooo many levels. They were great, the bond that we share is very strong. I saw my mom a few times this week, in some of the words that Ricardo had said...sounded just like how my mom would say them. That part was hard but sweet at the same time...
My legs are KILLING ME! I mean I have been running with the trainer and I LOVE The feeling, but seriously my knees, shins, ankles are KILLING...to the point that I need 4days of recovery time, which is just not cool...My cousin's wife said I need to just walk fast for a minimum of 30 minutes each day and build up from there...I know that walking is a great exercise, BUT, how do I walk fast enough to make it work for me? That is the question of the hour. So aside from walking around Manhattan, I did not do any other exercising this week. I told myself today that I was going to go to spin, but I didn't than I said I would go for a walk, but I didn't...Hey this blog is about honesty, and I am being honest..Did I mention that last Thursday I was rushing to get into the city to meet them and I ate breakfast toooooo fast and I had to pull over on the side of the NJ Turnpike and I vomited! I have NEVER vomited since getting the band and I was shocked as to how this could be happening. I saw my doctor on Friday and he said that I just need to refocus and remember to eat slow, use a fork and knife and put it down in between bites...I think i got off that pace before the fill because I didn't have to, but now post fill, I need to get back to that strategy, daily. Also the doctor did say that I am reaching every milestone and he is happy with my progress. I have to remember that I did get the band, the less invasive of the bariatric surgeries. Had I had the bypass, I would have reached my goal by now BUT I am happier know that my internal organs are in tact and I am doing well...I just need to be positive, know that I am loved and wanted by many people and really not just say it but BELIEVE it...
My cousin Ricardo and his wife Esther came to visit from Venezuela this week and it was soooooo much fun. I spent the majority of each day with them and it was just a great week, way too short but a great week. We went to see Jersey Boys and I must say, those seats were still a tight squeeze! I told my cousin had I not lost 70+ pounds prior to that, it would have NEVER been possible....So I need to look on the bright side, although this may be harder than it sounds. Ricardo noticed the following: he said I beat myself up a lot...I know that I do and I know that I am CONSTANTLY criticizing everything about me..to the point that I make myself sick...I don't get it, I mean childhood stuff aside, I am 32 years old and I am sick of this having a hold on me. We were taking pictures and I really thought I would have looked better and I had each picture retaken sooooooooooooooooooooo many times! And even on the ones I posted, all I could see were my flaws, but I posted them anyway.
It was definitely an emotional time for me on sooo many levels. They were great, the bond that we share is very strong. I saw my mom a few times this week, in some of the words that Ricardo had said...sounded just like how my mom would say them. That part was hard but sweet at the same time...
My legs are KILLING ME! I mean I have been running with the trainer and I LOVE The feeling, but seriously my knees, shins, ankles are KILLING...to the point that I need 4days of recovery time, which is just not cool...My cousin's wife said I need to just walk fast for a minimum of 30 minutes each day and build up from there...I know that walking is a great exercise, BUT, how do I walk fast enough to make it work for me? That is the question of the hour. So aside from walking around Manhattan, I did not do any other exercising this week. I told myself today that I was going to go to spin, but I didn't than I said I would go for a walk, but I didn't...Hey this blog is about honesty, and I am being honest..Did I mention that last Thursday I was rushing to get into the city to meet them and I ate breakfast toooooo fast and I had to pull over on the side of the NJ Turnpike and I vomited! I have NEVER vomited since getting the band and I was shocked as to how this could be happening. I saw my doctor on Friday and he said that I just need to refocus and remember to eat slow, use a fork and knife and put it down in between bites...I think i got off that pace before the fill because I didn't have to, but now post fill, I need to get back to that strategy, daily. Also the doctor did say that I am reaching every milestone and he is happy with my progress. I have to remember that I did get the band, the less invasive of the bariatric surgeries. Had I had the bypass, I would have reached my goal by now BUT I am happier know that my internal organs are in tact and I am doing well...I just need to be positive, know that I am loved and wanted by many people and really not just say it but BELIEVE it...
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
MUCH BETTER!
I weighed myself today and I LOST 1.8 LBS (.82 kg)this week for a total of 72.4 pounds(32.84 kilograms) LOST in 56 weeks. I feel much better as I refocused myself this week, concentrated on my protein, water and exercising!
I have very little to say except that I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited becuase my cousin from venezuela and his wife are here! I have not seen him in 10 years and it is just FANTASTIC to be able to give him a hug for real as opposed to on a computer screen via SKYPE! We are going to a broadway sho tonight, taking them to see Jersey Boys. I have heard great things about that show. We will hang aroung manhattan and just enjy the quality time together.
My trainer is out of town this week, but I have been running on my own in his absence. I ran on teh treadmill yesterday, and I think I prefer running outside better but I got the session in, so I am proud of myself! Anyway, thansk for reading!
I have very little to say except that I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited becuase my cousin from venezuela and his wife are here! I have not seen him in 10 years and it is just FANTASTIC to be able to give him a hug for real as opposed to on a computer screen via SKYPE! We are going to a broadway sho tonight, taking them to see Jersey Boys. I have heard great things about that show. We will hang aroung manhattan and just enjy the quality time together.
My trainer is out of town this week, but I have been running on my own in his absence. I ran on teh treadmill yesterday, and I think I prefer running outside better but I got the session in, so I am proud of myself! Anyway, thansk for reading!
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
WAY OFF!
I weighed myself today and I gained 2.8 LBS (1.27 kg)this week for a total of 70.6 pounds(32.02 kilograms) LOST in 55 weeks.
Well, as tears are rolling down my cheeks, I am trying to understand this sudden change of events. I am meticulously going over this week in my head...What went wrong? The only day that I knew I "cheated" was Friday night but I cheated on Daniel Fast approved foods, nuts, fruit, hummus! COME ON! My period was over by Thursday, so that is not it....Frank did take me out to dinner but that cant be it either...I am thinking that I just was not focused this week...Did not journal, did not focus on my protein and water...That must be it, when I get distracted, this shit happens....On a better note, I worked out 4 times this week..I had a training session, indoors becuase of teh rain, I ran with Frank, did a spin class, weight workout...I mean as far as working out was concerned, thsi was a great week! Anyway, I have nothing else to say except that today is the start of a new week, a week that will allow me to redeem myself...I am now 6 pounds away from the THINNEST weight I have been in 14 years...I would have much rather been 1-2 pounds away from that goal but I made my bed and I am sleeping in it....Onward and upward...Thanks for reading....
Well, as tears are rolling down my cheeks, I am trying to understand this sudden change of events. I am meticulously going over this week in my head...What went wrong? The only day that I knew I "cheated" was Friday night but I cheated on Daniel Fast approved foods, nuts, fruit, hummus! COME ON! My period was over by Thursday, so that is not it....Frank did take me out to dinner but that cant be it either...I am thinking that I just was not focused this week...Did not journal, did not focus on my protein and water...That must be it, when I get distracted, this shit happens....On a better note, I worked out 4 times this week..I had a training session, indoors becuase of teh rain, I ran with Frank, did a spin class, weight workout...I mean as far as working out was concerned, thsi was a great week! Anyway, I have nothing else to say except that today is the start of a new week, a week that will allow me to redeem myself...I am now 6 pounds away from the THINNEST weight I have been in 14 years...I would have much rather been 1-2 pounds away from that goal but I made my bed and I am sleeping in it....Onward and upward...Thanks for reading....
Monday, April 4, 2011
AUNT FLOW..YOU WHORE! LOL
I weighed myself today and I LOST 1.2 LBS (.54 kg)this week for a total of 73.4 pounds (33.29 kilograms) in 54 weeks.
As per the title of this weeks entry, one can tell that it is that time of the month again...a time EVERY woman dreads, unless you are having some sort of a pregnancy scare and you rejoice when she arrives! I have been really grumpy and moody of course...Luckily, I did get some quality workouts in this week..I would like to give a shout out to my trainer who pushes me soooooo hard and I seriosuly am cursing him for the whole hour but I am improving and become more agile and just the idea of being able to run for longer distances each week makes me borderline gitty!! Did I mention that he is from England and he often suggests that I have a banana after we are done but with his English Accent it sounds like "Buh-NAH-NA!" I did my fastest sprint this week..when we made it back to the apartment, even Frank commented on how much quicker it was this week! His workout was soooo hard this week that after it was over, I layed down flat on my face and stayed there for about 30 minutes until I had the strength to get up!
I am crazy busy at work, but I am still LOVING IT! Looking forward to a long career at this school...God Willing! The Daniel Fast is going well..I am over the initial SHOCK of not watching my show for hours a day...My eating is coming along nicely, since the fill. I am a little peaved that I onlylost 1.2 pounds this week, but I am sooooo bloated from Aunt Flow, it was expected as she always throws a curve ball at me everytime she comes for a visit! I am just in a word "trucking!" Every ounce lost puts me that much closer to my Biggest Loser moment and the most KICK ASS SKINNY PARTY this side of the Mason Dixon! LOL Anyway, that is all for now...thanks for reading!
As per the title of this weeks entry, one can tell that it is that time of the month again...a time EVERY woman dreads, unless you are having some sort of a pregnancy scare and you rejoice when she arrives! I have been really grumpy and moody of course...Luckily, I did get some quality workouts in this week..I would like to give a shout out to my trainer who pushes me soooooo hard and I seriosuly am cursing him for the whole hour but I am improving and become more agile and just the idea of being able to run for longer distances each week makes me borderline gitty!! Did I mention that he is from England and he often suggests that I have a banana after we are done but with his English Accent it sounds like "Buh-NAH-NA!" I did my fastest sprint this week..when we made it back to the apartment, even Frank commented on how much quicker it was this week! His workout was soooo hard this week that after it was over, I layed down flat on my face and stayed there for about 30 minutes until I had the strength to get up!
I am crazy busy at work, but I am still LOVING IT! Looking forward to a long career at this school...God Willing! The Daniel Fast is going well..I am over the initial SHOCK of not watching my show for hours a day...My eating is coming along nicely, since the fill. I am a little peaved that I onlylost 1.2 pounds this week, but I am sooooo bloated from Aunt Flow, it was expected as she always throws a curve ball at me everytime she comes for a visit! I am just in a word "trucking!" Every ounce lost puts me that much closer to my Biggest Loser moment and the most KICK ASS SKINNY PARTY this side of the Mason Dixon! LOL Anyway, that is all for now...thanks for reading!
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